I came to the realization the other day that I am a completely empty shell of the person I used to be.
Honestly, I don’t feel anything anymore. I am completely task oriented. It’s not that I’m unhappy, it’s just that there’s more work to be done. I keep trying tell myself that this is temporary and that everything will go back to normal once I’m done with nursing school, but the closer and closer to the end I get, the more I’m scared that this is just…it.
I love nursing, but it makes me wonder if I’d still be the same person if I did something else with my life.
Would I be happier? Would I feel whole?
I’m coming to grips with the fact that I’ll probably end up alone. I’d need to find my perfect match, and he really doesn’t exist.
Maybe I just need to get away. Away, away. Not just on vacation. I need to leave.